August 2003 Archives
Impending parenthood brings all kindsof advice and support from people who have been there and experienced the ups and downs of becoming a mom or dad. I must say that despite what people say, on the most part I have welcomed all the advice and I would even say I am even thankful to be in a position where other people can pass on the benefit of their experience to me. There is so much to think about, it is so overwhelming, from how many nappies we will get through, to sleep training and the change of independence as free (although not single!) people to name a few...
All I can say is where would we be without you all? Thanks! The advice has been great and I hope that one day I can pass it on myself. You have all been so supportive and made me feel better when I have been sore and grumpy! What with Jackie, Shaun & James coming over earlier in the year we experienced the joys of a new 6 week old colicy baby, and Steve, Lydia and Cordelia's visit a couple of weeks ago, showed us the next stage of a 14 month old exploring the house and the garden and the taste of freshly grown daisies! Honestly its been great, it really does bring a new level to friendship. Thanks for the insight you guys!
So despite still growing (yes I can hardly believe it either), not being able to move, carrying a cushion everywhere with me and a strange addiction to ice-lollies I can't wait for the b-day. I just want to get on with everything now, and I want to meet the little person in my belly...
Thanks everyone, its great to know we have so much support!
Sex: Boy
Weight: 9lb
Date: 2nd October
Time: 8pm
Name: William
Other info: Red Hair
...I will definately fall over!
I have been a bit slack with keeping the blog updated, but then since finishing work with Woz I haven't had a moment for pre-junior relaxation yet! Hopefully I will still be able to manage it...fingers crossed...
But I have more or less got all the preparation done for the big day...getting all the bits and bobs and necessary baby stuff together...the only thing I need to do is get my hospital bag packed and finish off my freelance work and I will be able to put my feet up.
Woz took some more pictures of the ever expanding bump and its really funny to see the changes over the months...hope you like them anyway...here you go
I know most people would be jumping for joy and ecstatic at the prospect of it being their last working day until who knows when...but I have to say that I am have lots of very mixed up feelings about it. I am quite sad to be leaving, I really love working at Radar, even if Woz is my boss! I suppose after all these years I finally get to do something that I enjoy and Woz and I both proved each other wrong by being able to work really well together.
But its not just the leaving my job thing, I suppose its the whole life-changing path that lies ahead of me, domesticity and financial dependence ...very scary. I know that I will work again at some point in the future and that Woz will not start expecting dinner on the table and all that (no jokes about it please hehe) but its still a big thing for an independant girl like myself! I am not sure if people realize quite what a big thing this 'end of an era' is for me as most people would probably consider it a big holiday. Mind you the fact that the countdown to B-Day is also the countdown to my 30th birthday probably doesn't help matters, so much change in such a short space of time.
Maybe in a few days I will start getting used to not working and start enjoying the sunshine and it'll not seem like such a big deal...I dunno...I spose I can only wait and see really...
I know one thing..I can't wait to meet junior now...my future can only be rosy from now on...with woz and our 'wee one' what more could I ask for? :)
I've had a few baby dreams, but none so vivid as the one I remembered when I woke this morning.
We had had our baby, a girl, and she was called Gloria. (This is NOT the girl's name we have picked! Honest!). I was walking around, singing the Van Morrison song of the same name ('Gee-ell-oo-or-aye-EH!'). My mum (I think) was there, and as we lay Gloria into the Moses Basket, she disappeared. We looked under the matress, and I looked under the bed and in our chest of drawers (right at the back, just to be sure). I was getting a bit stressed about losing a little baby, as you would.
Anyway, we found her again, and next thing we were at Max's mum's house. Sue (Max's mum) had bought Nige a big, Harley Davidson chopper, and he rode off with loads of hells angels. (I could have left this bit out, but I know Sue and Nige will really like it!).
I was showing Gloria(!) to people, in her car seat thing, and I lifted her out and dropped her! More of a fumble than a drop, but she slipped to the floor and I quickly picked her up again.
So, what would Freud make of all that! Methinks a little (not so) subconcious fear that I'm not capable of looking after a little baby....
And will it be a girl? Will I suddenly talk Max into using Gloria? Answers on a comment card please....
Well paranoia is finally starting to set in...I have to inspect every piece of fruit and vegetable I eat under a microscope to make sure there aren't any bugs lurking around. Weird! This is after I found a tiny cobweb on some grapes and got a couple of pieces of yucky fruit. I spose its cause if I have any kind of craving its for fruit, so it has to be perfect!
Unfortunately though its starting to rub off on Woz and I am freaking him out with all my talk of bug riddled fruit and veg (not that he eats any anyway!) but I have asked him to try and be my rational side as I am slowly but surely turning into a complete loon...
